Infant/Toddler Loss (0 - 3yrs)
lost her 4 month old grandson, Toby, on 12/24/1995 as the result of a car/semi head-on collision in an ice storm.
lost her 2 month old granddaughter, Santana, on 7/21/1996 as the result of an unknown cause.
|John & Lynne
lost their 8 month old granddaughter, Karyl, on 5/24/1998 as the result of an auto crash caused by a drunk driver.
"I had a rare sickness called Reyes Syndrome when I was 3yrs. I had died while in my coma and had been brought back to life by an amazing doctor who is my angel. I believe I was saved to educate and comfort parents that have or had a child suffering from this quiet sickness. Please contact me if you want to talk. I have more than enough comfort and support to go around."
lost her infant grandson, Tristan, on 2/28/2002 as the result of being born with cancer (Ewing sarcoma).
lost her 4 month old granddaughter, Nathalia, on 12/17/2004 as the result of SIDS. "My daughter and beautiful granddaughter lived with me because my daughter is only 16. Her death is so hard to bear. I miss her so much and would just like someone to share with who has gone through losing a grandchild to SIDS."
lost her 1yr old granddaughter, Sarah, on 9/6/2004 as the result of acute pneumonia. "My granddaughter was playing. She had no symptoms, but the next morning they found her unresponsive. An ambulance rushed her to the hospital but they couldn't revive her. The doctor said that she had a high fever and had a seizure. The death certificate said acute pneumonia. She was healthy in every way except her lungs. All of us are numb with grief and so confused...we just don't understand how this could have happened. If you had a similar loss, please tell me about it. God bless all of you in your time of need."
lost her infant grandson, Jackson< on 5/13/2006 as the result of a stillbirth due to an unknown cause. "My daughter gave birth to her first child. Jackson was stillborn. She was later told that she has pre-eclampsia with Hellp. But the autopsy is still not done. So we still do not know whether this was the cause of his passing. But now my daughter has been in and out of the hospital since then. She had a blood clot in her right lung and now 20% of her right lung is dead. Yesterday they found a clot in her left lung. I am really finding it hard to deal with the passing of my grandson and to deal with my daughter's health."
lost her 3 month old grandson, Aidan, on 10/11/2006 as the result of an unknown cause. "I am really having a hard time coping with Aidan's death. We still do not know the cause of his death. I am so angry, hurt, and confused about why he had to be taken from this world. I tried to do CPR on him and nothing I did would bring him back. It still hurts too much to visit his graveside. Aidan's grandfather was killed only four weeks after his birth. I try to realize that he is in heaven and his pawpaw is there with him. But I still want him back to see his smile."
lost her infant daughter, Emma-Dana, on 3/9/2006 as the result of a stillbirth due to an unknown cause. "I has been 10 very long months since the birth and death of my first and only granddaughter. I feel like I will never heal from this. While everyone else seems to be moving on okay, I am on my third depression medication and still do not care to leave the house and get out even to visit family. I can't seem to just be able to be sad for an extended period of time. We didn't even get to hear Emma's sweet little voice even once. My daughter had gone to her normally scheduled appointment just to learn there was no longer a heartbeat. They sent her to the hospital for an emergency ultrasound just to find that Our Little Emma had already been gone for about 3 days. My family thinks I am just lingering in the bad so to speak, but I was never able to handle death at all. I was crocheting her a little hat and blanket to come home from the hospital in when I got that fateful, heart stopping call that she would be stillborn. If there is anyone who can possibly lend some comforting words, other than those of God, for I am still so very angry with him for taking our Emma, I would greatly appreciate it."
lost her 10 month old grandson, Zachary, on 1/31/2007 as the result of drowning in the bath tub. "We miss our bright-eyed little angel! You will never be forgotten. You never got a chance for a lot of things but I take your spirit with me everywhere."
lost her 3yr old grandson, Dalton, on 4/15/2007 as the result of an accidental drowning. "I wish I could hold you one more time because I would never let go. We love you and always will."
lost her 26 day old grandson, Kaine, on 5/17/2007 as the result of premature birth. "Kaine was a beautiful little man who spent 26 days on the face of this earth and brought so much love to many. This hole in my heart will be there forever."
lost her 13 month old granddaughter, Maggie, on 5/5/2007 as the result of an accidental bath tub drowning. "On May 4, 2007 our family suffered a tragedy. We lost our precious 13 month old granddaughter Maggie Rose. She was the sweetest, most beautiful baby you could imagine. Now we try to pick up the pieces and learn how to live life without our baby. I was there when Maggie Rose took her first breath and I was there when my baby took her last breath. This is a tragedy no one should have to live through as the grief is unbearable. My daughter need me to help her get through this yet I am so weak. It breaks my heart to see my daughter grieving and know there is nothing I can do to make it better for her. I hurt for her and I hurt for myself. God Help Us All!"
lost his infant grandson on 8/30/1989 as the result of SIDS. "I need a friend who will take care of me."
lost her 2yr old grandson, Jayden, on 12/9/2007 as the result of an accidental drowning. "Jayden was our little Angel. There was not a person that met him that did not love him. He was the happiest little boy I know. He loved to play ball and go fishing with his dad, brother and mom! He loved to follow his brother around and do everything that he did. We all feel such a deep loss. Please, God, help us to understand why you needed him more than we do."
lost her 23 month old great-grandson, Jayden, on 9/14/2005 as the result of the CM virus which was caused by leukemia.
lost her 3yr old granddaughter, Briana, on 12/25/2006 because she stopped breathing suddenly. Briana was diagnosed with CP. "It's been over a year now but it still hurts when I talk about her and stuff like that. The holidays are the hardest for me."
lost her infant grandson, Diesil, on 1/4/2008 as the result of a stillbirth caused by heart problems. "I miss him so much and I want to understand why it happened."
lost her 3 month old grandson on 4/18/2008 as the result of shaken baby syndrome. "My precious baby, Micah, was taken from me by Shaken Baby Syndrome exactly on his 3 month birthday. The wheels of justice turns slowly and yet my hurt, anger and utter frustration grows deep. Please someone out there help me to see that maybe one day the pain and the tears will stop and I can heal. Signed Grandma Hope who misses her precious baby Micah, a sweet tender little angel sent from Heaven and taken back to Heaven again."
lost her 1 month old grandson, Mauricio, on 5/19/2006 as the result of an enlarged heart. "I am looking for someone to talk to as I have no one except my husband but he doesn't want to talk to much about this. I feel still so much grieving and my daughter who had the baby doesn't like to talk to me about Mauricio. I visit his gravesite every Sunday. I know he is in a better place and no more hurting but grama is hurting. Can someone help me?"
lost her 2 month old granddaughter, Corynn, on 6/7/2008 as the result of an unknown cause -- possibly SIDS. "I just need someone to talk to. To help find out how to deal with my daughter and her husband and their 2 1/2 yr old son. To learn how to deal with my own grief, anger, guilt and fear. I need to know how to go forward."
lost her 7 week old grandson, Payton, on 5/1/2007 as the result of SIDS. "We lost our beautiful grandson to SIDS on May 1, 2007. Our hearts were and still are broken. Listen for my whispers, Payton."
Child through Adult (4yrs and up)
lost her 4yr old grandchild as the result of an unknown illness.
lost her 12yr old grandson, Travon, on 6/21/2008 as the result of a dirt bike accident. "His death is so hard to cope with. I had left him for only 30 minutes and he went riding with his cousin. he suffered brain damage from hitting a tree. To this day, I don't know whether he was riding his bike or on the 4-wheeler with his cousin. He was a very sweet and respectful boy. He never met a stranger. I will never forget his last words to me. It was, "Kiss me, Grandma." He said this before I left him to go to the store. He was living with me for the last 8 years. I'm reading my bible but it is so hard. I would love to hear from anyone that can help me get through this."
lost her 26yr old granddaughter, Niki, on 11/29/2006 as the result of a drug overdose. "I log my 1st born grandchild at age 26 from an overdose of methadone and fentynal. She left behind a 2 month old son. Her mother is raising him. The entire family is involved in his life. He will never lack love and caring. I know it is very hard to be almost 50yrs old, work and raise a baby, but his Mom-mom is doing a great job. To tell the entire story of Niki would take days. In all of her 26yrs, we have never had an argument--only 'I love you, Grammi!'"
lost her 17yr old granddaughter, Amanda, on 5/19/2007 as the result of suicide. "Our beautiful 17yr old granddaughter and our son's only child, died by suicide. She was a sensitive and creative girl. She loved writing poetry, drawing and making people happy. She was a mature child and her death devastated our family. We'll grieve her loss forever. She was such a sweetheart who never gave us a bit of trouble. Her suicide seemed out of character. She will live forever in our heart and mind, but I don't know how to live without her."
lost her 19yr old granddaughter, Ashley, on 4/13/2005 as the result of an auto accident caused by a teen running a red light and broad siding Ashley's car. "I'm having such difficulty with my own pain--but also the pain of the immediate family. Tonight my 18yr old granddaughter, Sarah, Ashley's cousin called me on her way home from work crying and crying and missing her beautiful cousin who was like an older sister to her. This is such a nightmare. I feel like it will never end. I've never felt such pain."
lost her 6yr old grandson, Zachery, on 7/4/1999 as the result of an accidental fall from a horse. "I would like to try to help other grandparents who have lost a grandchild. It is hard for a grandparent. They are the forgotten griever."
lost her 17yr old grandson, Nathan, on 12/5/2005 as the result of an auto accident. "This is my daughter's only child. Hard time."
lost her 21yr old grandson, Ryan, on 3/4/2006 as the result of a car crash caused by a drunk driver. "On March 4, 2006 my oldest grandchild was killed in a car accident. I received the call from my daughter around 10:30pm. My life has not been the same since. Ryan was a very special young man. I helped my daughter through her labor with him and got to hold him when he was 5 min. old. I will never forget that day. He captured my heart!! I cannot get the sorrow out of my heart. How long will this last? The pain is so strong."