lost her 28yr old brother, Jeremy, as the result of an overdose of Vicodin. "I lost my brother a month ago to an overdose of Vicodin. He was only 28 years old and he leaves behind a wife, a beautiful 7 year old daughter and a 1 year old son who is the spitting image of him. I am having a hard time understanding why he had the demons he had. He was surrounded by so many people who loved him. I would like to email with anyone who understands what I am going through. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. I miss him so much and I wonder when the sadness will end."
lost her 22yr old brother, Brett, on 6/19/2005 as the result of a heroin overdose. "My brother, Brett, was as sweet as they come. Nobody, not the people that he worked with nor his best friends ever knew he was doing heroin. I am so confused by it. I'd like to hear from anyone who is also in our situation."
lost her 39yr old brother on 9/17/2005 as the result of a drug overdose caused by combining methadone and Xanax. "Joe had struggled with alcohol for most of his life but I never expected him to start using pills. He went over to my older brother, John's, house the night he died and hung out with him in the basement. John said he only drank a few beers before telling him that he was tired and going upstairs to go to bed. Joe said he was right behind him. John woke up around 6:30 the next morning and went down to the basement to do laundry. When he walked in the door, he saw Joe seated by the computer with his head on the desk. My older brother thought he was just asleep and tried to wake him. He noticed that he was cold and didn't have a pulse. He tried to revive him but he was already gone. I come from a big family and all of my brothers and sisters are very close. Both of my brothers feel like they have lost their brother and best friend. I wish there was a way to quickly get the message out that Xanax and methadone are a deadly combination. I loved my brother so much. He was a very caring man with a wonderful sense of humor. I miss him so much!"
lost her 26yr old brother, Dennis, on 1/20/2006 as the result of an accidental drug overdose. "Dennis wasn't a saint, but he was always very respectful. He was a good father to his 4yr old son who is so sad without him. He never looked like what the rest of the world defines as a drug addict. In the end, Dennis was a son, a father and my little brother. The pain of not having him near me or on the other end of the phone, to hear him laugh, to see him smile or to feel him give me a hug is unbearable. If anyone shares those feelings, please e-mail me."
lost her 17yr old friend, Jan, on 12/10/2002 as the result of an accidental drug overdose. "My friend, Jan, died from an overdose of crystal meth and I miss him terribly. He was like my brother."
lost her 23yr old brother, Chris, on 4/25/2006 as the result of a heroin/methadone overdose. "My brother Chris was doing great for months. He was recovering from heroin and we were both supposed to move to Montana when he got out of rehab. He always wanted to get away from the Bronx. My brother was my best friend --my everything. My brother relapsed a month before he was supposed to get out because another person in rehab brought heroin in. He went to detox. I thought my brother was safe just as anyone else would because the security is tighter than jail. For my brother, that wasn't the case. A staff member sold him heroin--mixed with the methadone they had already put into his body--he couldn't handle it. He never woke up. I have no one to talk to that can relate besides my mother. I basically have no friends and it would be nice to talk to someone who can relate. Please email me."
lost her 45yr old brother, John, on 7/28/2006 as the result of a heroin overdose. "My brother recently died of a heroin overdose. There are 9 children in our family and this is the first death in our family. My parents are 79 and 72yrs old. We are all devastated. My brother was 45yrs old. He was never married. My only comfort is that he was a strong believer in Jesus Christ and I believe he is in heaven. My brother had been dead 6 days before he was found so we couldn't have a funeral. If anyone out there wants to talk, please e-mail me. My brother was a loving, kind and big-hearted person and I loved him so much. I can't sleep, I barely eat and I wonder if I am in shock and if this is normal...?"
lost her 35yr old brother, Eddy, on 9/15/2006 as the result of a drug overdose. "I just lost my brother, Eddy, on September 15. He would have been 36 just 4wks later! He died of an accidental overdose. We know that one of the drugs was Xanax but they are in the process of conducting toxicology tests and the report could take about 3 months. They know it was a combination with something else. He went to bed around 10:30pm or so claiming he was really tired and never woke up. His friend, Chris found him the next morning around 10am when he noticed that he hadn't woke up. This has been the most horrible thing to happen that has ever happened to my family. My family is devastated. Eddy had a drug and alcohol problem and we tried numerous times to get him some help. It's all so surreal. I hate this! It would be nice to talk to someone who can relate to the emptiness and frustration I feel."
lost her 22yr old sister, Andrea, on 3/22/2004 as the result of an overdose of methadone & Xanax. "I lost my beautiful young sister to methadone and Xanax. She was 22yrs old and a wonderful person whom everyone loved. She was addicted to pain pills. I have heard of others who have been lost to this same combination of drugs. It's been two years since her passing and I am just now starting to be able to research why this happened to her. I would like to correspond with others that have lost children/siblings to the same cause. This problem is getting worse. It is senseless and it shouldn't happen to anyone."
lost her 30yr old brother, Terry, on 1/1/2007 as the result of a drug overdose. "I just lost my 30yr old brother Terry to a drug overdose on New Years Day 2007. He left behind a six year old son. We had a very life growing up and I know he felt very alone and wracked with pain. His pain was always my pain and I always tried to help him as much as possible. The deeper he got into drugs, the harder it was to reach him, literally and figuratively. I can't believe he's gone. I wish I could have saved him. He asked for help from his "drug friends" that night and they just ignored his pleas--now he's dead. I'm having a hard time coping and am overwhelmed with grief, guilt and worry about my six year old nephew. His mom is continuing to use and he sound so sad when I talk to him. It would be nice to talk to anyone who might be able to relate. Thanks."
lost her 27yr old brother, Matthew, on 1/24/2007 as the result of an overdose of methadone. "My brother Matthew was a sensitive, sweet soul. He suffered from clinical depression, anxiety and panic attacks. We grew up with a raging alcoholic father and a clinically depressed mother. Both loved us very much but had their own demons and it affected us deeply. My reaction was to escape--his was to protect. He tried to stay with my mother and protect her but paid with his life. He self medicated with alcohol and pain meds. He never had a life of his own. We struggled to help him for years. My father and mother finally recognized that he had a mental illness and not a character flaw this past year. He was ready to help himself and stared methadone shots in order to withdraw from the pain meds. He died 5 days later. I feel he was not well informed that he was risking his life. I am devastated. If anyone else knows the pain I am feeling, I welcome any support you may possibly have."
lost her 27yr old brother, Jeffrey, on 1/22/2007 as the result of a methadone overdose. "My brother Jeffrey was 27 when he died of a methadone overdose. He had been doing fairly well in recovery or so I thought. he was at a friend's house and found by the friend who called 911. They resuscitated him and then took him to the hospital but he was declared brain dead. We were able to donate his heart and liver. I have to say that most people don't have a clue that our loved ones were wonderful people even though they died of an overdose. I am looking for someone in a similar situation to talk to."
lost her 44yr old brother, George, on 7/23/2007 as the result of a drug overdose. "I lost my dear BIG brother George to drugs today. I got the call this morning. After years of rehabilitation and counseling, George could no longer deal with his addiction. After leaving the treatment facility in Munich, Germany, George went to a quiet hotel room, laid in bed and injected himself for the last time. I will miss you very very much. I hope you are in the presence of Oma and Tante Anne who loved you very much. I wish I could of had a chance to see you one more time to let you know how much I really loved you. You are my BIG BROTHER George who always protected his sisters when they needed protection. I miss you so much."
lost his 23yr old brother, Devon, on 8/2/2007 as the result of an overdose. "My brother, Devon, was an amazing person who had goodness in his heart. He had strong beliefs and was loved by everyone. Sadly, he was addicted to heroin. He fought it for 5 or 6 years--in and out of rehabs. Through all of this, he showed amazing strength. I miss him every day. We were four brothers! God bless him forever."
lost her 28yr old sister, Samantha, on 5/3/2008 as the result of an overdose of mainly Xanax and hydrocodone. "I am newly grieving and am looking for avenues to discuss my feelings. I lost my baby sister when she was 28 and I am 30. I always protected her as a big sis and I feel as if I have failed. She could not cope on this earth and I struggle with why this is. I am also struggling witht he fact that we were estranged for the last few months of her life because of her drama. She had even become clean and I still wasn't talking to her. She died 3 days after she had relapsed. I look forward to hearing from other siblings. I feel as if siblings are forgotten sometimes through all of this."
lost her 44yr old brother, Helenio, on 4/17/2008 as the result of an accidental drug overdose. "I miss my brother. I can't stop crying."
lost her 22yr old sister, Annie, on 3/15/2008 as the result of a heroin overdose. "My sister died from a heroin overdose on March 15, 2008. there isn't an hour that goes by that I don't think about her and feel guilty that I should have helped her more. She struggled for the past 2 years and then in October, she finally became clean. When this happened we were all in shock because it was out of the blue. the hardest part is that she leaves behind a 3 year old daughter who always asks where her mom is. I'm looking for support from other people who are going through the same thing."